Paulina's World

Idk who said you have to be perfect and listen to societies rules but being a CHRISTIAN does not mean you are perfert. Nor does it mean you have the right to judge others. I smoke weed, I curse, I did a lot of things I may not be proud of but these are not them. … and most people would swear I don’t know Jesus. Someone will definitely judge you for drinking a few beers and saying “shit” or “Fuck” when your game is loosing or if you hit your big toe… That is them… definitely not me.. Not if you are like my husband and cusses and swings at the air when playing a game on xbox I might say “ hey settle down” or “calm down” but that is about it. I definitely don’t like cussing to the point its every other word but I don’t mind ocassionally curse words. It is hard to explain but basically we go through this phase and curse non stop when we are younger adults because we are FREE. (haha) Well most of us do… then it becomes whatever and dies down a bit. Anyways, all of this has nothin...

Wow. What a beautiful and painful thing to hear and watch. This world is going through so much and we don't see it going on either. Hatred, anger, sadness, GREED, and so much more are consuming this world and making it harder to live in just a little more everyday. I have seen shootings, abuse towards kids, women and animals that have made me feel sad, upset and even cried. More than positive and caring things being shared with word being spread out by social media friends. The shooting was a lot to take in just like the others. To hear someone who was hurt and dealing with a loss because of the shooters actions - forgive and even go as far as inviting the murder to bible study. That is deep. A powerful example of the love for God that is in the hearts of the victims family members. Did you know? (Side note) You can forgive someone right now? You don't have to tell them until your ready or ever really. How do you forgive? You sit where you are and ask God. (Something li...

Hey Ladies and Gents!! How are you!! I missed you all! To be honest I have been kind of in a rut about my blog as many of you know I have been saved. I believe Jesus is my Lord and savoir. Therefore I don't know where I stand with this blog because I still want to write my sex stories but I feel guilty in a sense because its almost like porn... I don't know, COMMENT below and tell me your thoughts about that. I am here today because I have this desire to "talk" with you about the little things. I have a husband named Daniel and he loves me. Like all relationships he and I have been finding out how we like and do things in this relationship. We have been learning about each other and what exactly our Love Language is. (Yes we got that from the book Love Languages) I needed dish washing soap because we were getting low and he had forgot that he said he was going to buy it and when I reminded him he was bothered by it because he didn't remember no such conver...

Means, I love you. My love for ASL (American Sign Language) comes from something deep within me. ASL is unique in my eyes because it is not a language that is spoken but a language that is expressed. Naturally we express ourselves in the tones of our voice and body language. However, ASL is strictly expressed without a voice, something that is told through hands, body language and facial expression. Yes, people do these things everyday but who really pays attention to it? If people payed attention to body language more than just someones voice then they would have better communication skills in my opinion. We tend to make our voice sound appropriate but ignore what our body language is saying, what we truly want to say. So this is why I feel ASL is unique. ASL is always underestimated by people thinking it is an easy language because its just talking with their hands. Not the case at all because facial expression and body language can change the meaning of what you are signing i...

I will find someone who accepts that I am different from any other human being they have met before. I will be accepted and believed in by this man, while others look at me & have nothing but doubt. I look different and I act different but I am real. He will treat me with respect when temptation comes knocking he will answer the door and say his rejections and slam the door, loosing me will be his biggest fear and would never risk it. He will be confident, his own weird, and when he faces insecurities he will tell me and work through them. Not sulk and act in chaos then use it as an excuse. He will never tell me he thinks I am too good for him because he will be my equal, the one who can calm me down and the one who bring me joy when I am upset. The one who let me in and do what he does for me. Real as can be. As long as you are real with me I will be real with you. Give him my all? I will. Past events tell me not to trust ever again. But for you I will. Until then...

I can't focus these days.  Besides it being hot and the excruciating cramps from a very late period (do to exercising so much-too much info?  Get over it lmao) I should be able to focus now that I am in a library with AC and no distractions. Sigh...  It started when I started watching a show on Netflix  that was suppose to kill time not make me feel this way.  I feel so angry and sad. I know the show is fake of course but the love situation has reminded me of my biggest issue with men and why I pull away from dating. I am tired of being so easy to let go.  D didn't fight for me and Zachary didn't either. Even after I told Zachary how much it hurt not to being fought for after 3 years of dating D and Zachary did what he did. Zachary didn't fight for me either. After he said he would never give up on me and us. But he did and in a horrible & messy way at that. My thing is I was so important to these men but when it came time to show it and FIGHT.  T...